Copy and Happen

14 January 2013
9:02 pm

T. —

I really want to see this movie.

There are things that happen during the day that feel as though they happen to me. Then there are those moments where it feels like things are happening through me, as though I’m just a part of the bigger picture, as though I am just the vessel for this thought or idea to be expressed. To be utilized in that way, feels amazing.

I’d really like to see this movie.


I’m thinking of what I would like to focus on tomorrow. The two things that come to mind: catching up. Maintenance. I’m feeling more present right now, but the action isn’t quite behind everything yet. I started to write a letter to a friend today that I’ve been trying to write since I heard the news last week. But all I wanted to do today was: copy. Write words on a page after reading them and looking at them somewhere else. Just send it back the same way. Maybe I should just sit and copy some good poems tomorrow. Maybe I’ll do that in your notebook.


I’m still using the morning category, but I feel like most of my January letters might be evening ones. The light is the same. I’m just using the categories to remind me of where the cycle is falling.


Go where the raisins swell into grapes and the lemons light the sky.


To the New Year
W.S. Merwin

With what stillness at last
you appear in the valley
your first sunlight reaching down
to touch the tips of a few
high leaves that do not stir
as though they had not noticed
and did not know you at all
then the voice of a dove calls
from far away in itself
to the hush of the morning

so this is the sound of you
here and now whether or not
anyone hears it this is
where we have come with our age
our knowledge such as it is
and our hopes such as they are
invisible before us
untouched and still possible




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